for an unworthy man...

Now I realize…
Whatever I felt for u is pointless…
Its juz doesn’t seem right…
Lol…how could I've been tat stupid…
I thought I cannot exist without you…
I thought I am forgetful of everything but seeing you again...
I thought if this ever happens...my life would stop there..
I see no further...
I thought You have absorbed me…
Coz I always have a sensation at the moment as though I were dissolving…
I have been astonished that men could die martyrs for religion...
I have laughed at it...
But I laugh no more…
Coz I thought I could be martyr'd for my religion:
Love is my religion…
I could die for that…
I could die for you...
Coz my love is you…
I thought my creed is love, and you are its only tenet…
You have ravished me away by a power I cannot resist..
Yes u did..but not for long…
Lol..how stupid I hv been…
To long for you…
To wait for you…
To talk to you…
To cherish ur every moment…
Now I agree…
Love is all bout chemistry…
Maybe tats y u treat me like a toxic waste..
Lol..
At least now I realized..
Tat ur a man no worth crying for..
I thought u were too good for me…
Now I realized…
I am too good for u..
i finally realized…
all my thoughts were wrong…
so I should stop thinking bout you..
I can…
I shud…
I will…
I must…
Coz I deserve better…
Call me vain..
Call me conceited…
I don givva damn…
Coz I know…
Deep in ur heart..
U noe I deserve better…
So babye love…
In my history u shall dwell…

wish i could do this to you...